Did I have to walk outside? Why did he have to see me? Why did he come talk to me? Why did he spend the whole night hanging out? All just for that? To put out his charm? I thought maybe for once a guy truly believed I was beautiful and actually wanted to talk to me, not just for the ending. Why lie to me? Why lie to someone you don’t even know? Why couldn’t that just be it? Why couldn’t we just say goodbye? Why did he want to keep talking to me? Why did this happen? Why did I get my hopes up? I’ll never believe another man’s word. My trust and hope is gone. This makes me look so dumb and like I’m exaggerating the situation. I had never met a man as sweet as him but he turned out just the same. I’m done. I’m done caring. I’m done hoping. I’m done feeling like this. Idk what I was thinking.
until this void is filled. Until I have that person that loves me in every way. Until I feel the love I give. Until there is a reason for my heart to be beating.
